what do you know, now is already wednesday night. does make one wonder where on earth tuesday went, at least for me. today spent the morning and afternoon at ngee ann poly, pretending to be a poly student as i tried searching for a particular book which wasnt there in the end. ended up using the internet to download loads of pdf documents, because the poly subscribes to all those online journals which allows one to look at the full document FOC.

As i was leaving the library i saw a bunch of students that were being led around by some guide, most probably to introduce them to the facilities if they are interested in applying to study there. kind of makes me think of where i would want to go to study in future. just hoping that my dreams and ability match up. i am fairly certain of what i want to work as next time, but the in between road to reaching that destination still seems foggy. too many paths that lead out, one door closes and many more open up. which to take? take the road less travelled by, and hope that it makes all the difference? i do hope so. my ideal future job is rather uncommon, and i think that this alone will make all the difference. personally, work in something u love with a passion and the job will seem less like one.

but, as with most families, there is bound to be some form of passive resistance from family members, who just wish their son would find an ordinary job that makes alot of money, like doctors, lawyers, businessman etc., settle down by the age of 30 and have a wife and 2 kids. this is the ideal scenario, as totally fulfilled by one of my cousins, specialist doctor in skin diseases, married to another doctor and currently has 3 children.

but what if he isnt happy with his job, not really interested but needed to support the family? that is the fear i have, of finding the job i am in boring, but yet needed to earn a living, is it possible to do what you love and yet be able to earn enough? i really do not mind earning just an average salary, no need for that much, as long as i can do something i enjoy. by 'a job i enjoy', i mean a job where the hours fly by, where working isnt a chore, and i never find myself looking at the time wondering when i can leave the workplace.

ok, back to the in between road towards my future job, that of doing holiday homework during the 'holidays'