today was an odd day (besides it being tuesday, an even day). the first part of the day was ok, but it was towards the end that a sudden sadness started building up, for reasons unknown. it kept building up till on the way home i just felt consumed by total sadness, while still being able to remain on the sidelines and remark mentally about why would i be sad about anything. the source of this sadness is still currently unknown, and perhaps it will remain unknown for years, until a point in time when there is sudden inspiration regarding the matter.

the feeling of sadness this time round, can be comparable at best to the feeling of sadness one feels when knowing the world is about to end the next day, but yet knowing full well that no useful contribution has been made for the betterment of society. in short, a wasted life.

perhaps it was just because i had the sudden urge to want to be alone.i just wanted to be alone and yet have company at the same time, however contradictory it may seem. perhaps i may look upon this post next time i laugh it off, but for now there are no smiles.