maybe this is the perfect moment to make yet another blog post on this blog. reason: cos ndp is over. i wouldnt dare claim that ndp has been a breeze, or that i enjoyed in thoroughly, but i have to admit it did change my perspective towards those who take part in the preparation and those performers in the parade. now i can feel the pain of each year's participants, of 16 or more saturdays burnt, of each ever so precious weekend burnt, and of course all the hard work they have put in, forced to or willingly.

how did i feel marching, singing the anthem and saying the pledge? a simple question with such a complex answer. a mixture of love and hate for what this country represents. but the important thing is, hate isnt the opposite of love, indifference is. hate is instead an offshoot of the love towards something, of expectations and hopes and dreams not fulfilled, leading to the generation of that particular emotion. how does one love a country but dislike the acts of the people who live in it, when it is the people that make up the country? by sitting on a fence i guess. though it is inevitable i will have to fall to one side or the other, sooner or later, it is true that for now, the balancing act continues.

and lastly, life is back to normal. (hopefully)