today is the second most worst day of my life, the first one being something else..... the reason for this day is becos of the release of the exam results. i disappointed a whole load of pple including myself by doing that badly in the exams. maybe partly cos i deserved it. this time there aint enough time to wallow in self pity, but to pick myself up and carry on with a renewed determination till the final year exams are over.

i have woken up my idea.

sadness was my mood throughout the day, mixed with abit of disgust for not working hard enough, and yet more sadness and disgust at the thought that becos of my marks my parents would end up being disappointed. it is not me feeling sad that really bothers me, but the dread of informing my parents of my dismal marks and disappointing them instead. it is just one of those feelings that cant be put into words.

but now i shall strive to get off the bottom and take my studies seriously. life aint a bed of roses, rather a bed of amorphophallus inflorescences. just as a circle has two sides, the inside and the outside, life resembles the infloresecence, most of us might find it disgusting in looks and smell, but yet it takes some effort to appreciate the flower for what it really is. life is like that in the same way, we cant get to choose how life goes sometimes, but we can always make the best out of every situation. a man's world may be in ashes but tomorrow still comes. if someone throws shit at u, catch it and use it as fertilizer.