does one bottle up sadness? i am trying not to, maybe thats why i am typing here, comforting it is not to be speaking to anyone directly. not really sadness sadness, but rather a tinge of it. as some pple may realise, now is the 7th lunar month, meaning that it is tradition to burn offerings etc. somehow, my house did not last year. when i inquired, the response i got was "for what?". this is as simple as it gets, but yet the emotions behind this simple answer is far too complex, something that i do not have the mental stamina to endure for an extended period of time. the oil lamp which used to burn bright everyday has gone out, only to be lit twice a month. has this withdrawal method, an offset of amnesia to heal grief, solved the problems of the heart? i certainly hope[pray] so.